Not much going on lately. For some reason I am a lot calmer then I was just a few short days ago. I still have some things on my mind that are taking up a lot of my thoughts but...I don't know. It's like I came to an understanding mentally that I can wait for what I want. I firmly believe that God has a plan for me and I know that all things are in his time. So for now I will be patient not matter how badly I want it.

What I am having a problem being patient with is my dad. It has been what now, three weeks (??), and no call. They said they wanted to hire someone by Thanksgiving which is in a week. So they still have a week but damn I wish they would call already. I really want him to get this job, partly because it will mean good things for my family and partly for selfish reasons. Little by little my dad is becoming more intolerable because of his attitude and depression. I know he is anxious to know if he got the job but as usual he takes it out on the wrong people. He always has and unfortunately he probably always will. I also don't even want to think about what Christmas will be like if he doesn't get the job and Kate doesn't come home or we don't go see her, etc. I need this Christmas to be happy because I didn't enjoy it last year. At least tier 3 unemployment has been approved and my mom was smart with her last few unemployment checks and will qualify for the extension. At least that'll mean there will be money to pay for Christmas (sounds shallow I know).

Mom was sworn in Tuesday as a CASA volunteer. It was a nice ceremony and I got the opportunity to learn a little about the organization. It seems like something I could do at some point but not right now when I am going to go back to school and have decided I am going to need to get a part time job after the first of the year.

Speaking of the first of the year, I have started giving some thought to what my resoulution('s) are going to be. I am not going to go with the stereotypical crap (get active, eat better, etc.). The get active part I am trying to do now anyway. One thing I want in the new year that I have never had is a date on Valentine's Day. Seems small but I have come to realize it is the little things that matter the most.

Anyway, Newport in a little over a week away. I am thinking about driving up late Thursday night depending on what time we get home from Thanksgiving dinner, if we go out. I know it will be a fun weekend but I am keeping my fingers crossed for a good birthday since it is a milestone and the first time I will be able to actually celebrate my birthday in a few years.